John Walenta
To my Wife..... my best friend. It has been 2 weeks, and I miss you so much. How much I miss you is beyond words. Lot of "if/onlys" going on. If only I would have kissed you more, hugged you more, said I love you more. Granted, when I did tell you I loved you, it was always followed with..... "to infinity and beyond".
You made me a better person, but never tried to change me. From the night you said "you will never drive my car", I kinda knew something was going to happen with us.... and I had only known you for a few hours. Toss Valentines Day 2008 into the mix, and we became "us".
Best years of my life have been with you. Not always easy, but thankfully those times were just a storm front passing through, not a change of the seasons.
You truly blessed this world. They have Facebook up there? If so, you've read the posts. You touched a lot of lives. You made a lot of lives better, personally and professionally.
I'm listening to a Kenny Chesney DVD as I write this. You know the song I'm thinking about, and I surely hope that is true. You deserve it. You fought for your life, you fought hard. I know you could hear me a couple weeks ago; I made you laugh.
We are headed to your paradise in October to grant your wish, and celebrate your life. What a party that will be! Going to be a lot of tears. I know your wish is for us not to be sad. That's a tall order honey, but I'll do my best. As you know, sometimes my best sucks.
Thank you Sly-Hi. Really didn't know I was capable of loving someone so much. I do need to trust God. The pain is crazy. I try to keep it together every day, and don't do so well. I trust God, and look up at the sky and ask you to please give me some strength and direction. I really am lost without you. Sometimes I think if I just had 5 more minutes with you. You know I talked to God that night and didn't ask, but told Him, you have two options, pick one. He did. I'm OK with that. I know where you are.
Favor to ask. Keep an eye on me. You always steered me in the right direction, so I'll be looking up every day asking you for help.
I love you and miss you so much.
Your husband.
John